Not So Fast

Well Well Well, My trip is in 9 days, I couldn’t be more excited or impatient!                

Last night I went to a Totally 80’s party, I went to one last year and the tackiest colors this year I dressed more like a rock band groupie, MAN I looked like a slut, lol but you know with good reason..but I got hit on…and I hated it…but I got some good attention…I can’t believe how easy I am to read and how hard it is for me to make a move but let me use a quote from my face book

“Things I learned as an inexperienced night socialite: When it comes to what I like, I can be read like a children’s book. When I get close to what I like… I am reminded of gates!”

The Gate is a metaphor I have used for years, Those I allow in my gates and fences are very sacred people…so its hard to enter those gates…so last night when I was introduced to someone new and lovely, (metaphorically) Rails raised from the floor blocking her off….the last person to leave my gate still has a code that traps me in my own imaginary gate!

WOW!

I think so strongly. I know I shouldn’t post this BS but this is the stuff I don’t tell people in real life I mean F*ck I have to be able to say/put it somewhere..until I get a therapist, lol!

Night!~

Lackluster

In a crowded room
All filled with fools
I only stand alone
Becoming more of your shadow
And less and less your interest
I think of you I think of them and think of him
Wishing i could purge
those stain you left behind
Proud is a word, you knew to well
Envy is a word I knew to well
When thing had ended
I did not want you, but to be in your skin
Seeing thing differently
In my mind does have reversed
And I am a proud woman, #####
We are young and today are free
Our parting gift to one another
Things feel ill but I can’t complain
Moments don’t linger
Like when you could stop time with a kiss
The world fast paced and relentless
This is what it is to live in reality
I told you we had to think realistically
I figure you were the wall between it and a dream
Creeping past all that slowly
I maintain a better living
But things will never be the same
After you.

Just another Sunday

So heres my first weekly report!

So my week was ok

It started out painfully, I had a horrid backache and was a bit dizzy…Yikes!

I had to call in to work…and it always sucks when I can’t make it to work…I feel it makes me look bad…

So I was off 3 days in a row returned Thursday and it was boring…work has just become a consistent ordinary drag….weekends are worse soooo slow..best thing to happen recently was an attempt to break-in…ooooh kay thats not good but it was exciting…well I wasn’t there…nevermind, whatever…

I missed my Bestie so I rounded up my neph and she and I went to a park and then another park and we went out to eat, it was alot of fun I had missed her and she…missed my nephew, lol

Its Official!                                                                                               Today I requested the days off and will spent my B-day in NYC!

Can it be more Exciting! Well no not really other than that the week was very tasteless and meaning-less.. can’t help but admit life’s been kinda boring these last 3 months but I am doing well to make the best of these day, soon I’ll be returning to school so I try to enjoy this for now.

bye~

Lala

Lalalalalala
I’ve been doing well lately, works fine, life’s fine, and I’m planning 2 awesome trips
I just can’t believe how far I’ve come, I’ve never been so independent, but I have to deall wth adult problems now, lol.
It sucks to be an adult and have to pay your ways through everything but better now than later.
I need to get two aweful root canals and get contacts, so most of my money is gonna go to that and then my trips…pretty sure I’ll be broke for a while I might have to skip some social outings but I’m prepared to…maybe take some extra shifts…..maybe….
Thank gosh I’m getting a raise soon…I deserve it not to mention another one for being there for a yr!!!
Yayayay

Well that’s all of to shower~

Lower

I hate when some one just likes to $%&^% with your mind…

I mean seriously why do you do that!! OMG!!

I think its my fault to for chasing the rabbit and falling down the hole…

Things are steady now…don’t stir it up again….

I know I’ve been hooked my you, but I’m a small fish…just set me free…

In other news

I have built some amazing Friendships lately!

I was out all day today..who knew friends were so awesome!!

and my next days off are completely booked!!

Friday: Brunch of crepes with a coworker

Saturday: To the mall to spy on convention goers, and drive-in movie with 2 coworkers!!

I totally don’t mean to brag…I just can’t remember the last time feeling so free around others, and not worrying about impressions..I can get used to this!~

*sigh*

Of to have Some Chai

(not Chai tea, just Chai, lol)